Conjectures during Math Class

So I’m sitting in my discrete math class, and I’m nodding off while secretly hoping that the professor won’t notice. But who am I kidding; there are only 14 people here out of 150, so of course she’ll see me. I feel sort of bad for her because she tries really hard to teach and make sure we understand the material, but there is just a language barrier that makes it difficult to understand her and people have decided that it would be more useful of their time if they did not come to class. I come out of pity.

We’re learning about combinations and permutations- something that I learned how to do in 9th grade- so I figure I am overdue to write a blog post. My friend reminded of blogging when she showed my a Calvin and Hobbes comic about telling stories (neither of us are paying attention during class clearly), so mini shout-out to her. I swear one day, I’ll be able to write a post without having to be reminded that I’m an inconsiderate person neglecting my projects; today’s just not the day.

Source

How’s school?

Overall, it’s been pretty nice. I still feel like there is this perpetual cloud of regret that hands over my head because there are so many things I want to get involved in but can’t due to the fact everything happens at around the same time. If I were to attend everything, I would either never sleep or never be able to devote myself to any of the activities. I’ve never really had to prioritize until now, and it’s quite an experience. I do like how things are turning out, and it’s not because anything super eventful has happened. I’m taking life one day at a time, and while spontaneity still frightens me quite a bit, I’m learning how to become more flexible with everything and everyone.

I quite like orchestra because it’s a place where I feel like I belong. I’m a little bit sad that I hadn’t decided to become a musician because my dream job would be to play for musicals or movie soundtracks, and I know that I could always change to be a music major, but in my mind, it’s unrealistic and I am not that passionate about music. Not going to lie, though, I’m seriously considering not doing orchestra next school year because it’s so time demanding. My friends are all thinking of not taking orchestra for that same reason, and orchestra without my friends sounds rather bleak and depressing, so this will be a decision I hope to put off for as long as possible.

I really don’t have much time to write about anything else, so I’m going to have to put this off for next time. Perhaps I will write a blog post during every lecture, so it gives me something to do while providing an audience for my professor to teach to. Looking around the room, I can’t help but wonder if I taught this class, how many people would show up, which- as a segue- makes me wonder how many people read my blog posts on a given day. I could really look at my stats anytime, but I’m trying to develop a mentality that remains put regardless of what other people do or say. And maybe that’s what my math professor has already achieved: a feeling that what she is doing makes her happy in spite of how many people show up during every lecture. Perhaps subconsciously, I don’t come to class out of pity, but rather to learn more about how she always seems to have a smile as she looks across the empty chairs from 1:35-3:00 pm two times a week. I agree with the 136 people who say it is a waste of 90 precious minutes that I could have been using to attend workshops or study, but I’ve decided that as long she keeps smiling, I’ll keep coming. Because I want her to teach me.

Class is over, so I guess so is this blog post.

Cheers.

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Saturday Morning Musings

Mom's Birthday

It probably won’t be morning anymore after I’ve finished writing this, but just know I got inspiration before the clock hit 12. My mom actually asked me today if I was still blogging (because it was basically all I did during the latter half of summer) to which I responded “occasionally”.

I don’t want that to be a lie, so here I am, typing/texting (on my phone) a new blogpost with no real goal in mind. You can thank my mom for that.

Yesterday was my mom’s birthday, which is why I’m back home for the weekend. Granted, Georgia Tech is a highway and a couple streets away from where I live, so it wasn’t a huge trek. Because her birthday is on 9/11, it always makes me wonder whether or not she wakes up happy that it’s her birthday or sad that her birthday is on one of the most notorious dates in American history. Or sad that she’s getting a year older.

At what age do people start dreading their birthdays? Maybe dreading is too harsh of a word, but perhaps when do they see it in a negative light?

I myself can’t believe I’m turning 19 in a month. Where does the time go?

I think that the biggest stressor of college life right now is the speed at which everything moves. Time seems to move faster when I step on campus. Classes teach me things in a week that I would otherwise learn in a month, and all the extracurriculars that I wanted to attend at the beginning of the year have been put on the back burner. All the events and opportunities here you have to find or actively seek. I’ve missed several speakers and resume workshops because it’s not publicized all in one place and I just haven’t been looking in the right places.

I have, however, attended a career fair for my major, and it’s so overwhelming I don’t know how I’m going to ever get a job. Everyone’s competing for an internship you want, and I’ve never felt so vulnerable.

Granted, I’m only a freshman; a lot of my peers haven’t even made a resume. But I’m getting a premature taste of the future, and I can’t say I like it one bit. I’ve never coped well with uncertainty- I always had a backup plan. Lately, though, I’ve been going through each day with my eyes closed and – for lack of a better phrase- “winging it”. Nothing has made me more scared, and I’ve been trying to keep my head up. I’m just terrified of the day I’ll get hit by a wave when I least expect it because I’m taking life one day at time. Keeping my fingers crossed that it won’t happen anytime soon.

I will say that the one thing I like about college life is doing whatever you want. If you want to eat, go to a dining hall however many times your stomach wants. Surprisingly, I haven’t been eating that often because there’s so many other ways I can spend my time. One of my new favorite places is called Paper and Clay. It’s an art studio where you can make whatever you want, and get this: it’s free! I mean, the tuition covers “services”, but it’s so amazing to see all the things I can make without having to pay anything out of pocket. Same with this other place called Invention Studio. It’s like Paper and Clay, but for engineers. You can design anything your heart desires and watch it come to life. Growing up, I would love to go to yard sales or library book sales and look through the “free stuff” boxes because there would be no marginal cost and a guaranteed marginal utility. So finding all these ways to make things for no additional cost really makes my day.

Okay this post is getting a little long, so I’ll end it by talking about my roommate. She’s really all I could hope for and more. I’ve known her since 9th grade, but we’ve gotten really close these past few weeks. She’s seriously been through a lot, and the fact that she hasn’t gone crazy by all the chaos only accentuates her strength. More than anything, I hope we stay friends for a while.

Cheers.

An Old Friend (Blogging101 Day 11)

Long time no blog post, I know. It feels like an eternity despite only being 10 days. I don’t really know what I was intending to write for this post, but I guess I’ll figure out as I go along.

Assignment: Make a prompt personal

Personal. I guess this is going to be another hard assignment for me. What does 2+2 equal to me? Does it mean something different to someone else? I mean, I can’t see any other way of responding to the question except directly, but this is an outlet for creativity, so I will embrace it.

So what does 2+2 equal?

It equals the number of academic classes I am taking this semester. (In case you were wondering, I’m taking Discrete Math and Graph Theory, Industrial and Systems Engineering, English, and Earth and Atmospheric Sciences)

It equals the number of really good friends I’ve made during my week here at Tech. I will attest to the fact that you can make lifelong friends in a very short amount of time.

It equals the number of times I’ve taken a cold shower because I didn’t know how the showers worked and I was too self-conscious to actually ask someone how they worked.

It equals the number of times I’ve slept before 11 since I’ve arrived at Tech, and I’m glad to say that the semester is starting off with a lighter load of homework than I anticipated.

It equals the number of blogposts I hope to make this week, but I know this is just wishful thinking.

What does 2+2 mean to you?

Awards, for Me? (+Nominations)

Wow what an honor! I woke up this morning to two nominations for the Liebster Award and a nomination for the Addictive Blog Award. And I don’t even know what that means! I can’t really convey how flattered I am to be nominated, but I will try to fulfill the requirements of each the best I can.

Thank you both Anand and Scott for the nomination! It’s so touching to find out the wonderful bloggers that I’ve secretly admired also viewed me as someone who I thought was nonexistent. Mutual envy is something I was never exposed to until I started blogging, and I’m so thankful that I was given the opportunity to meet these devoted bloggers and find their passions for blogging. I cannot thank Anand and Scott enough for nominating me.

Liebster Award

Rules

  • Once you are nominated, make a post thanking and linking the person who nominated you.
  • Include the Liebster Award sticker in the post too.
  • Nominate 5 -10 other bloggers who you feel are worthy of this award. Let them know they have been nominated by commenting on one of their posts. You can also nominate the person who nominated you.
  • Ensure all of these bloggers have less than 200 followers.
  • Answer the eleven questions asked to you by the person who nominated you, and make eleven questions of your own for your nominees or you may use the same questions.
  • Lastly, COPY these rules in the post.

My Answers to Anand’s post:

What is life according to you?

An amalgamation of a series of events that I experience, no matter how positive or negative those experiences may be.

What is your goal or mission in life, if any.

To be able to give back to my family and friends as much as they have given me. (i.e. buy my parents a house and everything they could ever want, give happiness to those who have touched me)

What is your favorite film(s)?

Pursuit of Happyness, Silver Linings Playbook, Shawshank Redemption, Lion King, and Tangled.

What quality you like most about yourself?

I have a quick wit, and my sarcasm tends to be a defining feature.

Who are your heroes or role models?

My parents (cliche I know) and anyone who has built success for themselves from nothing.

Which is your dream destination?

Sydney, Australia

What do you prefer in life Peace or Success. Are they different for you. Why?

Success. I know this is selfish because having peace is nice and all, but all I really want is to be able to say is I am successful to my parents so they know all their hard work from immigrating here to building a life from scratch was not wasted.

What are your hobbies?

Playing piano, violin, drawing, watching YouTube and Netflix. I love hanging out with friends, but not meeting new people.

Do you feel good about yourself, people around you and life in general?

That’s debatable. I don’t hate myself, but I know there are things about me that I would love to change. The people around me I can’t change, so I don’t ponder too much about it.

What is the importance of gratitude according to you, if any?

People are sacrificing their time and effort for you; they didn’t have to do that, so you should be thankful that your well-being was part of their concern, even if for a second.

You made it to the end of set one! Here's a picture I took of my parents.

You made it to the end of set one! Here’s a picture I took of my parents.

And these are the answers to Scott’s questions:

What is your dream vacation?

Sydney! Australia is really beautiful.

What is the biggest crisis facing the world?

We’re very wasteful people. Like very, very wasteful. Read Garbology.

Which historical figure would you most like to have a beer with? (or a coffee, if you don’t drink beer!)

Walt Whitman. Maybe we’ll put leaves of grass in our tea.

If you could trade places with anyone, who would it be?

Ellen Degeneres.

If you had a superpower, which one would it be?

Learn things quickly.

Why do you blog?

I wanted somewhere to vent and share stories about my life.

What makes you want to get out of bed in the morning?

The fact that I have places to be and people to meet.

What did you want to be when you grew up?

A teacher.

Which of your posts so far, is your favorite?

I don’t really have one. I can’t say I remember what all my posts are about because I don’t reread my posts.

What kind of music do you listen to?

Classical, mainly. I’ve been getting into Indie.

Where do you see yourself in 10 years?

Hopefully at a successful job and discovering what I want in life.

Here are my nominations!!!!

My questions to you:

  1. What’s your favorite scent?
  2. What was the most valuable thing you bought online?
  3. What was the last book you read? Why did you read it
  4. What is one thing you’ve always wanted to do, but haven’t had the chance to do yet?
  5. Do you have any lucky items or traditions?
  6. Favorite movie quote (or book quote, if you want).
  7. If you could invent something, what would you invent?

That’s a wrap for now! I was also nominated for the Addictive Blog Award, but that’s a post for another time. Thanks to everyone for reading my blog and leaving such amazing comments! You guys are the reason I keep coming back.

Cheers.

College and Blogrolls (Blogging101 Day 10)

You know it’s bad when the title is as creative as a writer on writer’s block. I think I might have to drop out of blogging school, but I’m going to see how far I can get before I do. I love blogging, but with my first year of college just starting, I don’t know how much time I’ll have to pursue this.

Assignment: Create a blogroll to share a few links you love.

I went the cheap, lazy route and inserted a widget of the blogs I followed. They let you post up to 50, so I think I got all my following blogs on there. I honestly want to follow more blogs, so just post your link down below if you want me to check it out! I hate the fact that I have such limited time for blogging; I would love to be scrolling through other people’s posts right now.

In other news, moving in was fun. My friends from my school visited me while I was getting situated, and I’m so glad they made the trip one last time before they left for college.

Overall, I’m excited for college, but I also have mixed feelings with the whole experience. I want to meet new people, but as an introvert, I tire easily when conversations last for more than an hour. And I feel bad about the fact that of the hundreds of people I met today, I probably can only recall about ten of their names.

I wish all of them kept blogs that I could just read on my own time because I would actually remember them that way (“Hey, you’re the one who writes amazing poetry!” “You’re the one that can dance and sing and play violin at the same time!”). Better get some sleep so I can do more college exploring tomorrow.

Cheers.

Shifting the Spotlight (Blogging101 Day 9)

Though I technically didn’t comment on his blog yesterday, I’m going to feature someone who’s blog I have commented on in the past. And because I haven’t been following directions the past few days (this might be the first course I fail this semester), I don’t think there’s much expectation at this point.

Assignment: Write a post that builds on one of the comments you left yesterday. Don’t forget to link to the other blog!

So I don’t forget, the link is here. A fellow blogger named Scott runs the site, which is called The H-Files.

I distinctly remember the blog post I commented on because if I am not mistaken, I did tear up a little reading it.

Click the image to go to the post!

I can’t really tell you why I was so emotional (no, it wasn’t that time of month), but something about a dad’s monologue of his baby growing up seems so relatable despite having never experienced anything like it. I guess it’s because his post made me feel vulnerable, making me realize the inevitability of change and all the results that follow. It’s all hitting home very deeply, as I myself am leaving for college tomorrow. I know that my parents are doubting that I can survive out on my own, and my mom demanded earlier today that I call her every night before I go to sleep.

I simply rolled my eyes at her.

It was the sliver of sadness that passed through her as my eyes reached the ceiling that brought me back to the blog post I had read a couple days ago about a father not wanting to lose his daughter. I don’t know where I’ll be in five years- heck, I don’t even know where I’ll be in five months- but Scott’s post has convinced me to not be afraid to pick up the phone and call home when I’m at a dead end or feeling lost. Because my parents will always want to be my parents, I am blessed to know that they will be right behind me every time my balance falters or my focus shifts to a blur. For that, I am once again thankful.

There is no easy way to end this post, but since I need to be up early, I’ll conclude by saying that I may or may not call my mom before I sleep.

Cheers.

It’s Neighbor Day! (Blogging 101 Day 8)

Another fun day! I love meeting new people and reading their blog posts, so this ought to be very invigorating.

Assignment: Be a good neighbor

Today’s the last day before I leave for college, and it’s quite scary. I have yet to finish packing because I’m a very last minute person like almost every student I know. I hope that I’ll have time to meet some new and amazing bloggers today. I love and hate how everyone is all over the place. I actually have not met any blogger from Georgia yet, and that is quite the surprise.

The downside of that, however, is that I won’t be able to meet a lot of people due to the time difference and all of our busy schedules. It certainly isn’t anything too depressing because the community has gotten so big, I can almost guarantee there will be a few fellow bloggers online while I am.

Here are some of the bloggers I’ve already had the honor of meeting and interacting with. You guys should definitely check them out!

I wish I could list all of the ones I love, but I’m really running short on time, so sorry in advance if you don’t see your blog on this list!

Cheers.

Ahead of the Game (Blogging101 Day 7)

Turns out that while I didn’t complete yesterday’s assignment, I unintentionally finished today’s, which is great because I’m finding myself short on time.

Assignment: Create and upload a simple header, background, or both. Already done? Try a widget.

Thankfully, I did all the hard work during the past two days. I readjusted the font of the title and tagline because it seemed wonky, and Anand pointed this out to me. Now it should be the exact font of the other text on my website. For some reason, it isn’t to my liking, but I’ll deal with that later.

School starts for me on Monday, and I’m getting packed for my first year at college. I can feel the frenzy of school build up and I fear that I won’t be able to finish this blogging course. I hate the fact that I don’t have time to read everyone’s blog posts anymore. I hope that I can juggle everything and still come out alive because I love the community of Blogging101, and I don’t want to lose it.

That being said, I have to go meet up with my best friend of 8 years before she leaves for FSU. I’ll talk to you guys later!

Cheers

Rebel Without a Cause (Blogging101 Day 6)

It’s only been a weekend, but it feels like it’s been an eternity since I last wrote a blog post. I guess that’s what happens when you spend so much time doing something and suddenly take a break from it.

Assignment: Make an Irresistible “About” Page

I mentioned before how difficult it was for me to write an intro and how much I despise it, so I am leaving my “About” page as is (perhaps I’ll add a little bit to it), and I’ll write about my hardships with the header image instead. Yeah, yeah, I haven’t been following directions since 1996.

I spent a hefty amount of time trying to get my banner just right (shout out to Microsoft Powerpoint for being the application I used the most over the weekend), but there are a few things about WordPress that I found quite annoying.

The first thing I did was outline where I thought the pictures would border the title and tagline, so I could create a collage without it obstructing the words. A few trials and errors later I came up with a template.

Header Image

Oohhh, Ahhh

So I then compiled up images that I had saved onto my computer over the years and selected my favorites to put in the collage. This was the end result.

Header Image

Who are all those people? Is that Itzhak Perlman at the top? Why yes, yes it is.

You probably realized by now that the pictures on my header are not in the same place as they are in the above image, and that ‘s because I ran into a series of problems with WordPress.

First, the header space is a lot smaller than the image I had created, which was okay with me, except it would mean I’d have to readjust all the photos. Which I did. So I ended up deleting all the places where the header wouldn’t hit and came up with Banner 2.0.

Header Image2

So messy! And where did Perlman go?

It looked great on the preview.

Banner

No header is good without Perlman.

But terrible in real life.

Banner2

That’s what you get for taking out Perlman.

At this point, it was midnight and I had spent a whopping 2 hours on this thing. My eyes, brain, and heart were hurting, so I called it a night. I opted to just keeping the white header image that it came with and having my project go to waste.

But I woke up the next morning and decided I couldn’t let it defeat me. A petty battle, I know, but I already spent so much time on the banner to no avail; I can’t let WordPress get the best of me. So I pulled up the image (thanking the gods that my control freak of a mind managed to save a copy before I rage quit that night), and I worked on it. Instead of using the WordPress title and tagline option, I inserted them into the picture manually.

Save, adjust, upload.

Banner3

The god is still missing, but I guess it looks alright.

It wasn’t easy- as I thought it would be- but change, no matter how small, is hard. There will be times you’ll want to throw the towel in and make yourself believe that you can live with it, but you won’t truly be happy. Once you decide you’re due for a change, stick with it. Push yourself through it, despite all the inertial forces in your head and all around you that tell you you can’t. Because those forces don’t define you; you do. This banner took me 3 and a half hours to make, but the change was worth it; I can say that I am truly happy with it.

Cheers.

Taking my Website Wardrobe Shopping (Blogging101 Day 5)

Assignment: Love your Theme

This was rather time-consuming, but fun nevertheless. I sort of wished there was the option to “Open theme in new tab” because having to click back after applying each theme and scroll all the way down to where I was before demotivated me significantly. I probably missed out on an amazing theme, but I’ll never know.

This is what I have right now:

Blogging101 Day 4 Theme - Sela

It’s very simple and easy to maneuver. Basically, what you see is what you get. That is both the advantage and disadvantage of this theme. I’ve personally grown accustomed to it, so there’d have to be a really phenomenal theme out there for me to even consider changing it.

Blogging101 Day 4 Theme - Afterlight

The Afterlight Theme

This was the first one I tried, and it is by far the worst one for my blog. It’s very monotone for my taste, and that might just be because I’ve done no customization on it whatsoever. I do like how the picture makes my blog seem limitless when I scroll up and down, though.

The Blask Theme

The Blask Theme

This one’s not bad. I kind of like the square/rectangular title space that makes my title look nicely formatted. Again, it makes the website look endless while I’m scrolling through my blog. One thing I don’t like is that there isn’t a sidebar like in the Sela Theme that allows you to easily search or find posts.

The Gateway Theme

The Gateway Theme

 This one is similar to the Sela theme with the layout, and I like that. It has the sidebar option, and I think I would have chosen this one if I found it before I found my current theme. Like I mentioned before, I would only consider changing my blog if it blew me out of the water, and this one sadly fell short.

The Flounder Theme

The Flounder Theme

 In terms of design, I really like how this one is formatted. There is a sidebar, and you can easily see the tags and categories of my posts. There is no place for the tagline, but that wasn’t the deal-breaker for me. What I didn’t like was that I couldn’t seem to find a color palette that matched my galaxy background, so what I went with looked tacky and unsettling.

The Fictive Theme

The Fictive Theme

Not going to lie, this one is my favorite by a long shot. Very beautiful design layout, and very simple to navigate. I love the gravatar box on the upper left that displays the title and tagline of the blog. My only critique is that adding widgets might become a hassle if I ever decide to add more than what I already have. I had to delete all the text on the widgets (Search, Archive,etc.) because while size of the font may seem fine on the title and tagline, the text on the widgets are blown up to obnoxious proportions.

Overall, I’m going to stick with what I have because it’s easy and efficient. Maybe if I’m feeling like I need a change, I’ll go for either Gateway or Fictive. What do you guys think?

Cheers.